About the Author
The author, identified here under the pseudonym Augustine, is a college student from the American Midwest and a convert to Catholicism. For personal as well as political reasons, he found himself separated from the Catholic Church shortly after his conversion and this period of separation endured for the first two years of his college life. Throughout these two years he made mistakes that highlighted his distance from God and he felt an emptiness that he couldn’t fill. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t escape God’s love. St. Augustine famously said it best:
Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would not have been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace.
These two years in the wilderness were really a slow process of identifying the source of an increasing misery, which was the author’s decision to separate himself from God and his Church. The final catalyst that led him to return to the Church was reading Anne Rice’s account of her own reconciliation with her faith after decades in the wilderness, described in Called Out of Darkness: A Spiritual Confession. Reading this account, he saw much of himself in her words and decided that he would not wait for decades to finally accept that the Hound of Heaven would never give up.
Having reconciled with the Church, the author has discerned a vocation to the single life. He has decided to dedicate his life, his talents, and his future career path to God. Specifically, he is working to flesh out an authentic Christian Democracy rooted in Catholic social teaching, which is the purpose behind his blog, Order Our Days. He is also exploring various third (or secular) orders and lay associations to discern if one of these would be the best way for him to live his vocation to the single life.
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